My journey as healer has taken me from a very western clinical approach into the more spiritual and dynamic realms of the healing arts. My classical training taught me to assess and then treat according to my diagnosis of the situation. As my skills have deepened, I realize the body is it's own best healer and is vastly more capable of expressing its needs than I am at "fixing" them. Instead, I listen to how your body and energy field unfold into the invitation of safer space and find healing often occurs solely in being compassionately witnessed.
Today, the basis of my work explores early and formative traumas that take up space in our bodies and energy fields and uses a multi-modality approach to integrate those wounds so you can live in alignment with what is most true for you.
Its completely normal and even healthy to develop dissociative patterns when we've experienced something we're unprepared for. The work we do together defines where those patterns of dissociation came from and how they are affecting you presently. Often during traumatic events, we experience soul loss, leaving a part of us in the past while the rest of us continues on. By re-teaching your soul parts that your present-time body is a safe place to inhabit we are able to call all of you back into a place of remembering and integration.
When we experience trauma the part of our brain that manages critical thinking, rational decision making, modulation of social behavior, and discernment are overridden by the lower brain which manages survival instincts, emotions, and memory.
During circumstances of perceived threat, our bodies are flooded with endorphins, building the energy needed to fight or flee to ensure our survival. In simpler times this response enabled us to run away from a mountain lion or defend our home if needed. In modern times, we see this fight/flight/freeze/fawn response applied more towards encounters of social and cultural dynamics but kick into high gear when our physical safety is threatened. This is a natural and healthy function of our physiology. It’s only when that built up energy in the body cannot be discharged that we see things like dissociation and PTSD.
In dissociation we see a separation from felt senses both as a protective mechanism as well as the inability to integrate life experiences with the critical thinking part of our brain. In PTSD higher brain functioning is severed and we have no access to critical decision making, no ability to rationalize triggers. Any trigger has the potential to send the body into physiologically reliving the experience. This looks like nightmares, panic attacks, anxiety, irrational behavior and feeling out of control.
Dissociation and PTSD also happens during formative years when we are not cared for in the ways that are vital to our development. Almost all of us carry some internalized behavior patterns as a result of the relationship we have with our caretakers and often times we do not understand that we are suffering from these deeply held beliefs and patterns.
At our most basic level we are looking to be loved, seen, and understood. The goal in this work is to re-engage the critical thinking mind by using mindfulness as a tool to become an observer of our patterns rather than being led by them.
During bodywork and energy clearing I will often incorporate sound healing and aromatherapy to further help engage the senses and activate the pleasure centers of the brain helping to rewire where we store the trauma.
When we experience dissociation, an un-embodied or fragmented part of us is still living in the past unable to integrate new experiences. This lost part of us, while still intact, is unable to feel felt sensations and emotions therefore unable to contribute to the spiritual growth of you as a person.
We dissociate because a part of us believes our body is no longer a safe place to inhabit and cuts off all connection to preserve itself.
While energy work is not what heals these wounds, it can help clear the way for the self-examination needed to do this deep work and help cultivate energetic hygiene.
The work we do by accessing traumas and then accessing body sensations through bodywork helps to remind the soul that the body is no longer in a trauma state and it is safe to come home. This work requires a loving relationship to be established with your own body and usually entails working with ancestral and social/cultural traumas we hold in our body as well. This work creates an energetic vacuum and the soul parts return gently and slowly over time as they feel ready.
In addition to using sound healing, aromatherapy, and gemstones to activate the senses and the higher functions of the brain, it also helps shift the subtle vibrations so new patterns may emerge.
Each session will look a little different as I like to incorporate both dialoging time and hands on work. I prefer to work within a 90 min session to allow for an integrative and effective experience. Because I blend so many modalities together, a given session may combine any of the following: